this WOULD happen

Dear Universe.

I know that I cannot expect everything to run smoothly all the time. Obvi, this is real life. But really, is it necessary for every single aspect of my life to be as difficult as possible? Today has been shitty. This is why:

1. My computer is officially broken.
2. I paid $60 to replace the charge cord which worked at the store, but is now dysfunctional.
3. My best friend is moving out.
4. The person with whom I am closest lives 2 hours away.
5. I cannot handle being lied to. It causes me to doubt every interaction I have with the people around me.
6. I have now worked 80 hours in the past week and a half, and I still have another 20 in the next days.
7.I just found out that I will only be able to be home for less than 24 hours for Christmas.
8.I have a final on Tuesday. Which I have just calculated, I have to get at least 86% or better on in order to get a B.
9. I feel too sick to my stomach to eat my leftover Indian food. I think it's from the stress.
10. I need a hug. And there's literally no one I feel like I can ask to come over.

Despite all that, there were a few things that made me smile today. They don't cancel out the mountain of bad, but it's a start.
1. My new beanie that Landon swiped from the Festival of Trees (Only after my endorsement). Great memory, awesome hat.
2. The way the lightposts on campus were illuminating snowflakes as they fell when I walked to my car.
3. Carmel Apple Cider from Starbucks. So worth my $4, I needed it today.
4. A sincere and heartfelt email from Erin.
5. Burning boxes and getting the work truck stuck in snow with Keenan.
6. New sweatshirt. Soft, fitted and won't let me down like people inevitably do. (This cynicism is not only toxic, but also contributes to my compulsive spending habits.)
6. A customer telling my boss that I should be given a raise. Then my boss agreeing with him.

All I want is for my life to manageable. And maybe for a normal human is would be, but today I simply do not possess the capacity.